Weaning Off

Alhamdulillah I managed to breastfeed Aryan for 20 months. I was so determined to go up to 2 years, but ya..hermm..ermm..I have no other excuse. Memang aku malas nak bawak bag Freestyle tu dah. Ahah bad bad mom. I'll try to BF for 2 years for our second baby insyaAllah (no, i am not yet preggie. Still planning ;) ). But 20 months of exclusive breatfeeding is not bad at all khen ?

I know that I can BF until 2 years kalau aku rajin and discipline myself with the pumping session. After we got back from Umrah, memang stock 1 deep freezer penuh dah habes. And during our stay in Mecca and Madinah, memang pumping session ke laut. Sebab itu it was not a surprise at all bila balik Msia je, production pun drop. 2 weeks tak direct feed, and pumping session tunggang terbalik memang lah akan effect the production kan.

But still bertahan for few months whereby production was like kais pagi makan pagi kais ptg makan ptg gitu. Up to one point, I was so lazy to bring 2 bags to office. Apekah jenis alasan ini aku pun tak tau. Hoh.And I did not pump at the office, just pump kat rumah je. As time goes by, malas nak pump dah. Just direct feed memalam je. Masa ni dah start try try formula milk which could suit Aryan's appetite. Start campur-campur itu ini. Alhamdulillah Aryan tak cerewet sangat, but we decided to settle with Susu Ilham. Then malam pun MNi willing to bangun buat susu, and dari situ Aryan dah trus weaned off from brestfeeding. Easy kan :)

Sometimes dia ada lah jugak tarik-tarik tangan mommy, tarik-tarik baju mommy.. But I try to be strong lah, kang elok dah wean off tetiba dia nak BF balik, hah hambik satu hal pulak lagi. Walaupun jauh kat sudut hati tu sangat rindu the BF moment and memang perkara itu adalah sangat sangat precious. Oh my sangat indah perasaan and bonding between us itu. Priceless ok bila kau BF tengok mata dia, dia tgk mata mommy senyum senyum buatlah muka comel dia tu. Haihh. Then malam-malam pun tak payah susah2 bangun buat susu, dia pandai je carik kalau dia lapar.That explains kenapa Aryan nak tido melekap to me sampai sekarang and sangat susah nak asingkan tempat tidur dia.

Apa-apa pun i've tried the best for Aryan. Tapi 4 months je lagik nak ke 2 tahun full BF term, what was I thinking entah. Haih. Sepatutnya aku kena buat power pumping etc., tapi kenapalah malas sangat masa tu. Alasan alasan alasan. Jgn tiru perangai aku ni okeh. Hopefully utk next baby I can do better than this. Yang penting kena positive thinkin, banyakkan mencari ilmu on BF seeloknya during pregnancy lagi, wajib RAJIN and determined to BF your baby, and of course paling penting is support from encik suami.