Konnichiwa !

No, I was not back from Japan vacation. I am here doing nothing, waiting for job placement. *Err very sensitive issue to talk about now*

By the way.. it's my first post for 2016! Haha. Luckily i still remember the blogspot password. Duuhh. So many things to share but I forgot how to blog already. Sigh. Quick ones :

1) I cannot run from updating about this strong little man of mine- Hadif Aryan. 2015 was a very tough one for him, and of course for me and MNI as well. But Alhamdulillah, Allah chose us for His own reasons. After series of surgeries, trying out a lot of trial and errors, Alhamdulillah Aryan is back on track. He started going to school again in 2016, 99% recovering that's what I could say for now. Still need close observations especially during this very hot climate. So far we stick to this treatment for his seizures -

• Homeopathy - treatment with Dr Suryakathun
• Young Living Essential Oils 
• Food supplement - honey, habbatussauda, aloe vera gel, kampuchea tea, al-manna
• No processed food, trying as best as we could to go for all organic including chicken, vege etc. For this reason, our groceries shopping shifted to Jaya Grocer or Cold Storage due to varieties of organic stuff. And yeahhhhh that means lagilah bnyk perbelanjaan nya.
• Enough rest and sleep

Alhamdulillah, so far these work on him. He is 6 months seizure-free. I pray everyday that he will fully recover and his condition will remain as today if not better. Alhamdulillah his development is progressign well despite of cuti sekolah almost setahun. He now can read Peter Jane books and also Iqra' book 6. MNI tengah struggling to teach him tajwid dengung etc. and we discovered both of us are in need of cikgu tajwid as well. Hekhek.

2) Khalif pun Alhamdulillah baik-baik belaka. The only thing that worries me is budak sorang ni is too clingy, takut orang and tidak pandai bersosial seperti Aryan when he was at this age. Pastilah sebab Khalif duduk dengan bibik all day long. Takde kawan. Kesian dia. So we plan to send him to playschhol starting next year. 3 tahun dah besar juga kan.

3) Work wise, maybe you've already heard that Oil & Gas industry recently got hit by the oil price crisis. Of course everyone in the industry got affected. As for my company, I could not say much - everyone is not certain about their job now. Everything will be answered this Friday after official letters are released. So tunggukan aja.

4) And ohhh, one thing to celebrate is I lost 4kgs this year. Haha. I started Aerodance class end of last year and I am now a gym freak. Hoho. Makan juga tengah berpada-pada. Overall, I just want to live a healthy lifestyle. That's all.

Oklah. itu sahaja setakat ini. Now I feel like rindunya berblogging. Hekhekk. Daaa!

BERGIGIH LAH

Ouh dengan semangat yang begitu jitu sekali, I've got this as self-theraphy (hermm ya kah, doesn't sound like my usual theraphy but for the sake of menyedapkan hati, sila agree dengan kenyataan saya) ...... tada..

New oven for raya ! Kehkhehke sila lihat sama ada oven ini masih berada cantik dalam kotak after raya, atau bebetul aku utilise oven ini. Cewah membeli bukan main bersemangat lagi. Nak buat kuih raya konon ! Wheehii oii jangan pandang rendah pada kebolehan saya berangan okeii ! MNI kata "kalau syg tak buat kuih, siaplahh ".. Ehehhe tak tatoot punn ;p

I used to bake a lot during university years. Oh sila pecaya cakap saya, ini bukan ceritera atau dongeng. Because my housemate dulu was kaki baking jugak. Dan jugak kaki memasak . (Adakah in a way aku cuba menyampaikan bahawa MNI bukan kaki memasak dan menyalahkannya menjadi penyebab aku kepupusan minat membaking itu? Peace yayang :D )..We used to bake muffins, cakes, apple pie.. and u name it babes...pendek kata semuanya petik jari jahh. Wah ayat riak di situ.

Tapi itu suatu ketika dulu. Baking and cooking need practice ya all. Sekarang aku just masak jah, baking segala tidak lagi. Salahkan oven, sebab kami takde oven sebelum ini. Mungkin after this aku menjadik terrer kembali? Mungkin.

Maka tengoklah nanti. Kuih raya ape yang bakal menjelma kalau korang datang beraya ke rumah kami. (Padehal dah bebalang-balang kuih raya aku order. Kiiikikiki)... Goodluck erin. I know u can do it ~

OF CERITA RAYA

It's my first raya of being wifey. U ask me how does that feel, my answer is aku pun takde perasaan sebab puasa pun belum lagik ;p Akan tetapi, we somehow already started arguing of where to spend the 1st Syawal at.Kalau tanya saya lagi skali, of course for all reasons on earth aku haruslah nak beraya di JB ! Insane me if I suggest to raya other than the place I've been spending 25 years of my raya.Akan tetapi lagik sekali, syurga itu di bawah tapak kaki suami kannn? Ingat ingat itu Erin. I hardly remember when did this conversation take place, but lantak pi lah.

Me : Abg, kita raya kat JB kan tahun ni? (Note it was a statement, not a question)
MNI : Ooo NO NO NO (sambil buat tgn ala-ala comel dia itu).. Mesti la raya kat Melaka. Pastu baru kita balik JB oke syg.
Me: Kita raya kat Melaka pagi Syawal, pastu ptg raya first tu balik JB kan?
MNI : Ooo NO NO NO (again !). Mana sempat habes rumah sedara-mara kat Melaka. Raya ke-4 ke kite balik Jb ok syg.
Me: Memuncungkan mulut sampai boleh sangkut baju. (Note that aku diam je, sebab takmo derhaka kannnnn.)

After few hours...(tak habes-habes lagik tu)

Me: Haaa ok syg tak kisah raya Melaka tahun ni. Next raya, raya kat JB k (sambil melonjak2 gembira)
MNI: Eh tadi syg majuk kata raya Melaka
Me : Hahahha tahun ni raya takde baby..Tahun depan raya insyaAllah ada baby. Lagi best raya ada baby. Tahun depan raya kat JB . yeay yeay yeay.
MNI : Eh ha'ah la.. Tahun ni raya JB la, tahun depan raya Melaka. Abg tuka decision lah.
Me: Ooooo NO NO NO. Terlajak kata buruk padahnya. Takleh ubah decision dah. (Sambil tesenyum bongkak, bangga dan hidung kembang gile sebab aku menang gak somehow kann?? Khkehkehkehk)


Past sentence: Pagi tadi I tried to puasa ganti. But pukul 10am dah gigil2 lapa, maka tepaksa bukak posa. nampak gayanya kena bayar fidyah lah this year if tak sempat baya hutang posa itu. (Lagi nak cerita pasal raya,  walhal puasa pun ntah dapat ke tidak ;p )

RANDOM THOUGHTS

1. I just got back from Kuantan last Sunday, attending by bff's wedding. And today I am in Kuantan again sebab mengikut MNI pegi training. Kehkehk ya sila gelakkan aku sebab mengekoo je mana laki aku pegi. Ada aku kesah? :p Btw, blame the company lah, sapa suruh kami tinggal sorang kat timur, sorang kat barat.. Haa kan aku asyik amik cuti je. Peluang yg ada utk spend masa besama jangan disia-siakan.
   
   
2. My tummy is growing, not much but enough to bikin kepala wa pening pilih baju apa nak pakai. It's in the middle nya state - nak pakai maternity clothes,perut itu tidaklah menonjol sungguh. Akan tetapi nak pakai baju-baju yang sedia ada, oouh memerlukan ketahanan mental yang tinggi kot especially bila seluar nak naik melepasi punggung tu. Oopsy ;p
   
   
3. I've started berangan nak letak nama anak. Yaa aku tau awal nak gile, but dah kepala otak asyik fikir je. Dah tau baby boy kan so dah narrow the options. Ada idea ka?
   
   
4. I've met my high school senior kat Kuantan ni but aku tak tegur sebab takut salah orang. Siap balik bilik check FB nak konfemkan identiti nya . Skali konfem lahh, satu training ngan MNI. Haa kan da rasa besalah sebab macam sombong tak tentu pasal. Hiik kang ptg aku tegur lah.
   
   
5. Orked wa dah pakai skirt and ada spoiler oke ! Later aku tempek gambanya yang sungguh comel itu. Pasni kite kasi tukar dia punya rim pulak !
   
   
6. Petang kang kami nak gi makan durian.. Uuuhh wa bukan hantu durian, tapi hantu MNI tu dah hasut saya suh makan. Jadi sekarng punya perasaan ialah sangat teringin nak makan durian.
   
   
7. Dah golek2 kat bilik hotel ni mmg best. Lagi la bila teringatkan org lain suma sedang sibuk bekerja dan membilang jam nak ke pukul 5. Kehkehk. Enjoy your working hours!
   

LUPA INGATAN

Kejadian berlaku di Subway.

Me: Nak sub of the day ( I am a tuna lover. U give me 1 can of tuna, and u can never imagine how quick i can swallow the whole gram )

Pembuat subway : Meatball marinara?

Me : Tak. Nak sub of the day.

Pembuat subway : Ha ye lah. Meatball marinara.

Me : Eh kan ke hari ni tuna? Hari ni hari Selasa kann??

Pembuat subway : Tak lah akak. Hari ni hari rabu !

Me : Ohh ye ke. Ha bolehlah, tak kisah. (Aku dah ala-ala bengang sebenanya. Like hey, who's gonna have that marinara thingy? Aku tapau, and aku tak telan bende alah itu kot. Whatever )

Ok I behave like a 26 year old lady. Read: OLD. I think, being alone all week makes me losing little bit of memory. Or perhaps, konon-konon otakku ini membaca hari dengan lambat sehari, supaya nanti aku tak kecewa sangat bila rasa like OMG lambatnya nak ke Khamis depan. Yes, the day till we meet again. Seriously, I never imagine long distance marriage would be this hard, this difficult. It ruins my whole focus, and i keep thinking of him all day long. Tu tak termasuk risaukan the lil inside me and whatnots. Tak masuk risau kain baju tak cuci seminggu sebab aku betul2 penat macam org buat bangunan malam2, tak termasuk risau fikir bila MNI nak dapat pindah KL, tak termasuk risau nanti macam mana nak deliver kalau aku tekontaong-kanting sorang2 time. Work?? That's my part time job ;p Don't blame me if i cannot do anything beneficial. Sapa yang takmo bagi laki bini duduk bersama? (I know MNI is trying so hard to get transfered to KL. Pray that semuanya akan dipermudahkan dan kami akan ada rezeki to live as a 'real' family )

Nyte.

TAGGED BY AYU

Nama samaran Kamu
Erin
Shaz [ ada 2 orang je dalam dunia ni panggil nama ni ]

5 Tarikh Penting Dalam Hidup Kamu
24.06.1984 My birthday yeay
19.02.1983 MNI's birthday

05.12.2009 Became his
26.02.2010 Miscarriage
I want to write my graduation day, but bila ntah. I know its December 2006 !

5 Perkara Yang Buat Kamu Gumbira
1) Makan mee bandung Muar which tastes really like mee bandung ok! Dah bnyk kali aku kena mee bandung rasa sos tomato. Please lah, learn to be a Johorian kalau ada hati nak serve mee bandung. [Iya semangat Johor di situ !]
2) Balik rumah sendiri yang condition nya kemas dan tenang. It's a hint ; En MNI sila jgn buat sepah di rumah. itu membuat saya tak gembira .
3) Dpt drive dari office ke rumah atau sebaliknya dalam masa less than 30 minutes. It's like kucing betanduk i guess.
4) On top of all this, of course if u give me $$$, aku konfem happy ;p
5) And on top of any other list that u can imagine, the happiest thing is to be with MNI =) ......[Iya i'm learning to be independent and super kental jadik single wife nih dan tak nanges malam-malam ]


Tempat Percutian Idaman Kamu
1) Rome
2) Japan
3) NZ
4) Ntah la lagik, MNI and I do not have any vacation plan yet (unless u want to surprise me syg..Lalalala) For now, we really focus on settling down and persediaan menyambut ahli keluarga baru.

Sebab Kenapa Kamu Jawab Tag Ni
1) I was sick with the traffic that made me stuck for 2 damn hrs on the road.
2) Aku rasa tertipu dengan sale ISetan. I thought that item was on 50% sale, rupa-rupanya aku salah tengok. Habes kalau dah key in, boleh lah I said NO. Sudah pasti tidak bukan? Baru ku settle suma credit card. Uhuk.
3) Aku tertipu lagi dengan eyeliner that I just bought. Ingatkan dengan brush, rerupanya it comes with separate brush. the salesgirl didnt even mention about it sampai ke counter iya. Ok fine, again aku mmg tak reti to say NO when it comes to shopping. Maka boleh lah beli eyeliner tapi tak beli brush?
4) Sebab jam yang macam kuda itu, I didnt bother to tapau or cook anything for dinner. I just had pau kacang yang aku microwave. And now I am super hungry macam nak merengkuk kat katil.
5) I miss him so much, and I just want to kill my bored-sangat sunyi yang melampau-husbandless night. And after this I'll go straight to bed with an empty heart. Sighhhhhhhh.

5 Orang Yang Nak DiTAG
Sesiapa yang nak bunuh masa macam saya tu, silalah buat.

PHEW~

Phew phew phew.. Berjaya jugak aku moved semua entry from wordpress to here. Gilalah, i thought aku buta IT, tapi bejaya jugak. Kehkhek [If you see the procedures, i bet kau gelakkan aku guling2 kot sebab sonang jo nak moved entry bagai ;p ]

Orait later k. Super penat weekend ni. Daaa~

SIGH SIGH SIGH

We are officially in long distance marriage. Gosh I hate it so much and I doubt I can live on my own. Eleh before kawen pun, macamlah tak biasa tinggal rumah sorang2. But please, I'm  so used to  have him by my side since the day I became Mrs. Not even few hours being left here, I started to feel my soul being ripped off. Please God give me strength.

KEMBALI KERJA

June is here dude. The month of my birthday *big grin* [Motif?]



By the way, Im back in KL for good. But havent got into the office. Tomorrow baru nak masuk office. That explains  the picture, after one week of blissful holidays. Oh saya masih bercuti Gawai and esok baru ikut calendar KL okeh ! Sekejap saje dahhabes 1 week. It was tiring yet a good theraphy to get away from office. Lalala. Travelled back to JB meeting my loved ones. But 2 malam sahaja because sekarang kena bahagi cuti kepada 2, untuk tido another 2 nigths in in laws'. So dapat lah 2 nights each. Kemudian kami shoot ke Perlis utk ke wedding sahabat. And one of my besties tertinggal flight ya. Kasihan kau Ject. But dia gigih beli tiket naik bas pula. Wa tabik sama kau :D

Nothing much to babble lah. The thing is, aku sungguh takde momentum nak start kerja smula. Aku ada workstation ke masuk opis esok? Ada cubicle ke? Ada PC ke? Password pun takde nak masuk system oke. Apa kata bagi saya cuti lagi. Heeeeee.

Dah. Happy working, and Friday is coming in 4 days. Daaa~

Past sentence: Congrats Seri :)

2ND LAST..

.. day in Miri. Should I be happy or saiko-ly sad? Hemmph.

The city is significantly people-less. I think most of them had gone back. Nampak sangat majority of the penduduk are not local. When it comes to long holiday, sesak napas nak beli tiket flight. MNI and I, both are stranded here. Tu lah, sape suruh bijak sangat beli tiket hari Ahad. Wal hal orang lain sudah beposak-posak pulang ke kampung halama sejak dari hari Rabu lagi. Kononnya MNI taknak cuti Isnin depan, so being a good wifey (ehemm ehemm), saya pun setujulah utk tunggu dia. Skali last minute he told me he's gonna take leave on Monday. And tinggal harapan  lah nak tukar flight ticket segala, all fully booked! Dang~ So duduklah laki bini tekebil-kebil tak tau nak buat hapa di bandar minyak ini.

Moral of the strory: jangan berangan nak kerja time orang ramai pulang cuti. Kerna itu adalah satu usaha gigih yang akan menambah tekanan, then passtu tak tahan. Last-last balik jugak ikut orang lain yang cuti. Kehkehk ;p

Me, being sick for the past week. Had ear infection yang aku mati-mati kata itu adalah tumor. It didnt give me any warning or whatnots,tiba-tiba bangun pagi adoi sungguhlah bisa telinga. Went to the clinic and was given ubat titik saje. The next morning, the infection became worse, because it was bleeding so badly. Siap nanah-nanah segala. Lagi lah kuat aku melalak kata ada tumor dalam telinga. Went back to the clinic, and was given an antibiotic. The doctor was a bit reserved nak bagi ubat makan-makan dengan keadaan saya yang tak brapa nak stabil ini.

After a week, became even worse sebab dah merebak ke telinga kiri. Uwaa lagi wa meratap hiba kata ada tumor lagi. Mugking kanser? Ouhh sungguh saya takut ya amat super dewa. Went to the cilic again, and the doctor dah angkat tangan surrender ok! She referred me to a specialist. wah wah lagi saya trauma takut segala.

Went to the specialist, dr kata infection je bukan tumor.. Hehe me being paranoid biasalah, selalu think negative. Dr kasi cuci telinga saya, sedut keluar suma darah dan nanah. Ye sangat mengilukan dan pening nak muntah muntah uwekkk. The doctor also reserved to give me any oral medications. He just bagi ubat titik saje, which he said was more powerful dari ubat kat clinic hari tu. Dengan itu, selepas 2 hari terus telinga saya pulih alhamdulillah. Ouh simpang malaikat 44 kalau tumor. ya Allah minta diajauhkan.

Eh masa kat specialist tu, the dr masukkan camera dalam telinga and of course nampaklah segala darah, bengkak dan nanah segala. Lagi nak muntah tebelahak ok. And MNI pura-pura baca buku ke risalah hape atas meja dr sebab takmo tengok camera screen tu, boleh?? Heee mmg takleh jadik doctor lah lakiku itu.

Ok. jom golek-golek habeskan weeekend ni. Esok kene kemas rumah sewa MNI. [uwarggg sedih dah ni]. Ahad, see u in KL.

IT'S 40DEG OUTSIDE

It’s freakin hot outside that I nearly had a quick shower over lunch at home. But, golek2 bemalasan seems more appealing to me. Nak pasang aircond pun, aircond lambat sejuk [ alah kata je lah takmo baya duit karen lebey ;p ]

I am spending my last few days in Miri dengan penuh kesedihan (?) walaupun dalam hati ada taman untuk balik KL for good. Yeay! But then, what is more meaningful, more important, more joyful and blissful than being next to your hubster all the time? Takde kannn. Same here. Walaupun wa sudah rindu gaban nak balik KL, but rindu dengan chenta hati itu lebih penting hokeh. Dah sila lah jgn baca kalau nyampah dengan statement aku.

I’ve sent almost all of my stuffs to KL already, leaving just enough baju for 2 weeks. Which means dah sebulan lebih aku pakai baju yang sama selang seminggu. Mengikut rule of thumb aku, baju pakai hari ini, adalah utk diulangi pada bulan depan ya, Bukan minggu depan. But that’s what I’ve been doing for the past 6 weeks. Kesian kan.And Cik Orked will be shipped [actually menggunakan kapal angkasa ya] next weekend. I’ve got an approval letter from the bank already, secure the freight date yada..yada.yyada…Everything seems to be on track. Kan aku organizer berjaya :D

Highlights of the month:
27 May – last day of work in SSB Miri
29 May – ship Cik Orked
30 May – Im going back to KL for good
31 May – MNI menyusul . He will be on 1-week leave sempena hari Gawai. Then he’ll stay in  KL for 1-week training. All in all, 2 weeks in KL.

Warghh. Wa ingat wa sudah besedia utk long distance ini. But tiba-tiba today I feel so sensitive and rasa sungguh tak ready. Mau aku nanges hari-hari ni kang. Sob sob sob. Tsk tsk tsk..

Past sentence: Deep inside me is struggling. Mungkin ada orang harus banje saya makan brownies secret recepi utk meredakan perasaan ini.

FB-ing

While golek-goleking watching Thomas Cup yang bisa buat putus jantung...

Me: Pot pet pot pet..ee tak fit ni player Msia. Even program mentor pun, kena kuruskan badan utk fit menyanyi. Inikan pulak atlit negara.. Haruslah kurus, baru bleh aktif dan bebas bergerak. And fit utk bagi smash ala-ala membunuh. Pot pet pot pet pot pet lagi.

MNI: [Begerak-gerak yang mengganggu konsentrasi saya ]....

Me: Abang nak pegi mana ni?

MNI : Nak pegi main Facebook.

Me : Erk.

Bolehh?? See what FB can do to us.
[Pegi main Facebook. Kehkhke  mcam nak kuar umah gi court main badminton je bunyiknya ;p ]

Past sentence: Im selling my HTC HD2. 5 months in hand, excellent condition, still under warranty. Will post it in later entry. If ada sesiapa berminat, you are so welcome to email me ok [shazrenshah@yahoo.com]
Reason of selling : Saya sudah jemu pakai touch smart phone. Before HD2, I used the Touch Diamond baby for about 2 years. Campur HD2 about 5 months, dah 2 tahun setengah pakai touch phone. So sakrang saya nak pakai phone ada keypad smula. Hiks. I have this penyakit, kalau tiba-tiba jemu, memang jemu lah jawapannya.

OVER THE WEEKEND

Pheeww penat yang tidak terkata. The reason of going back to KL on the May 1st weekend was initially to attend my ex-hsemate's wedding. But ended up, we had a kenduri doa selamat-cum-housewarming. Semuanya on the 1st May itu. Kau imaginelah, tercabut ke tak tulang lutut aku?

It was not a pure kenduri like mkn hidang2/ buffet ke hapa. Doa-doa tu of course lah dah ke aku kata kenduri. We made it so easy and casual lah. Kat rumah, takde satu makanan pun.. Semuanya wa letak kat BBQ area tepi swimming pool. So after the doa, all guests turun bawah makan. Rumahnya sekangkang kera nyah, camna nak makan semua skali kat ats kan.

Venue: Villawangsamas BBQ and pool area.
Ini sangat mendatangkan kemarahan apabila the guards datang 17 kali marah aku dan MNI sebab they claimed we didnt get any permission. Ouuh darah saya dah naik ke hotak ye. Gila apa, we paid Rm100 deposit for that freaking BBQ area and RM50 fee. U read me right, mahal ok. Kalau 5 kali kau nak buat BBQ, RM250 melayang utk fee. Grrrrr. Nak je aku maki opak guard tu, but luckily lakiku adalah seorang yang penenang, maka keadaan menjadik in good control. Tahu takut management tu, kang aku ngamuk, tak pasal kang pecah cermin pejabat. Kehkhe ;p

Food: BBQ seafood, ayam dan beef. Nasi lemak berlauk, roti jala, noodles, kuih muih segala.
BBQ segala saya marinate sendiri ye tuan-tuan dan puan-puan. Sampai KL on Thursday night. On Friday morning gigih pegi pasar kat Selayang nunnn.Tajuk dia NSK market. Beli ayam segala di sana dan malam itu dengan gigih lagi skali me-marinate. Dengan bantuan MNI dan paklong nya. Malam itu tegolekdog kepenatan. Dan Sabtu pagi-pagi buta marinate ikan pulak. Sebab ikan takleh marinate awal sangat, nanti tak sedap. Ehheheh.

Guests: Family from both sides - JB and Melaka
Hamik lagi skali. Tak menang tangan oowh nak entertain dua-dua belah family. Both sides datang on Saturday and tido KL semalam. JB side suma tido at our crib, while Melaka side tido kat umah maklong di Keramat. Siap kena pecah 2 lagi, almaklumlah rumah kami tu besaaaaar sgt kan? Hiks. We tried our best to ensure both families feel convenient, welcome and comfy. Kalau ada kekurangan tu, ya ampun..

Event: Baca doa selamat, BBQ, makan-makan, bedebusshhh masuk pool. Heeeh. Dan malamnya, saya dan MNI gigi ke majlis kawen sahabat baik Puan Marissa. (puan dah ? ;) )

[caption id="attachment_1301" align="aligncenter" width="561" caption="The big happy family - JB side [Melaka side tak sempat amik gamba :(] "]"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_1303" align="aligncenter" width="510" caption="Congrates Esha & Nik =)"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_1304" align="aligncenter" width="510" caption="The not so newly weds ;p"][/caption]

 Past sentence: Kenduri/ hsewarming for family = checked. Utk kawan-kawan, bakal menyusul ye .. :)

BECOMING IMPATIENT

Can you tolerate delay in anything you do? Be it work, personal ke hape. Me? Definitely not. Kerana saya adalah seorang yang bukan penyabar. Kalau boleh, I want everything that I do or apa yang I deal with akan settle just on time, if not earlier. Macam bagus kan aku ni. But I need to live with it, and MNI jugak. Kehkehke.

Dah lari tajuk sebenanye nih. That is not the subject I want to babble about. Actually, thing that membuat hati ni tetendang-tendang tak sabar, and macam nak pecah is sebab since i miscarried, i havent got my menstrual cycle back. Gilo ke apa, dah alomost 7 weeks already. The theory is, u must be on the crimson wave to get ovulated, then only u can conceive. Got it? So how on earth could we try if i havent got the cycle yet. Ohhooo but doctor advised to wait until 3 cycles, ini 1 cycle pun tak dapat2 lagi, ape kes?

So as usual, the-worried erin surf sana dan surf sini. Tak tido malam oke wa asyik fikir benda ini. Well, to be frank the first pregnancy itu was actually not in the plan. It was like, we didn't even try and aku nak melompat-lompat join KKP dulu this year. And I plan to get preggie bila balik KL sebab takyah ulang-alik Miri KL kalau preggie.   Tapi dah dapat rezeki awal tu, kami sangat bersyukur. Once I lost it, baru lah ku rasa betapa kesedihannye hati and i think i am sangat sangat ready to be a mommyy :D

Here are some stuffs on getting recovered after a miscarriage.

The normal recovery goes like this : Your bleeding will taper off to spotting within a week, and maybe random spotting will continue for another week. Your hCG drops steadily, usually hitting zero during the end of the spotting, or about 10 days after the miscarriage or D&C. Body attempts to regulate its hormones again. It may kick into gear right away, and you will get a new period in four to five weeks, or it may struggle a bit, and the period will not come for seven weeks.

A less common, but still normal, recovery goes like this: Your bleeding tapers off quickly, but with some spotting. You think it is over. Perhaps a week or even two will pass, and you begin to wait for your period. Then suddenly, it begins again. Strong cramping, heavy bleeding, and pain. You cannot expect a normal period any sooner than four weeks from this, and up to seven weeks could still be normal. Your total wait time from original miscarriage to first period can creep up to nine or ten weeks and still be normal.

A recovery that should be monitored looks like this: The main bleeding seems to have ended, and you are spotting. And spotting, and spotting. Three weeks pass and you are still wearing panty liners. (You call your doctor, and they said give it another week.) Spotting ends. You are relieved. A few days later it begins again. You are crushed. Sometimes you get slightly heavier bleeding. You hope it is your period, then read that you have to have NO bleeding for almost three weeks first. You are crushed again. Your ordeal seems like it will never end. In this case, you should go in for an hCG blood test.

A cycle that indicates a serious problem looks like this: The bleeding tapered off, but then got heavy again. You are going through several pads a day. After two weeks of this, you call the doctor. They tell you to see what happens. You may get a little reprieve of no bleeding or just spotting, then it begins again, as heavy as ever. You call and insist on being seen. You are feeling exhausted from the constant loss of blood and the sad ordeal just going on and on. You seriously need to do a detail check up with your doctor.

Begitulah kekdahnya. After i read all these facts, barulah ku lega sikit.. Which means it's normal NOT to get ur period untill 4-7 weeks. Because the HcG level needs to be less than 5 for the body to read that : ooh this fella isn't preggie anymore. Then barulah boleh period.

Dan to the ultimate tahap kesabaran aku yang dah tak terjangkau, wa asyik murung je ok, and nak marah je keje aku... Semalam apabila sedang stress buat kerja memandangkan hari ini adalah FInal presentation project aku (yang hari tu tak endorse tu kannn), tiba-tiba semacam aku ni tak selesa.. And apabila checkkk, yessss im riding the crimson tide ! After 7 weeks of miscarriage, so aku termasuk di golongan normal recovery lah i guess. But seresly aku dah hilang sabar tunggu P day ni oke! Nasib baik dia datang juga :)

And lepas ni, lets see how we gonna go with it. I think its more fun if we dont work for IT, i mean WORK like WORK. Camne nak cakap heh? Memanglah berusaha, but takdela sampai menganggap ooohh harus harus bekerja keras gigih membanting tulang untuk itu. Harap2 da lah rezeki kan :)

Okeh. Im typing this from Mandarion Oriental. Hehee this is my last business trip while Im in the Kompeni Kuning project. Might as well aku gi try suma hotel kann?Kehekhe. Weh perasan tak i kata LAST trip, ooo sebab project wa dah endorsed !!!!! Pagi tadi present dalam keadaan separa sedar, (sebab malam tadi gado ngan MNI, pastu tak dapat tido sampai dia pujuk aku baru boleh tido..kahkahka) , tapi nasiblah baik everything went well.. Ohho project ku, i love u.

Jom gi makan ikan bakar blknag Celcom. Tata ~

QUICKIE ONE

Wah wah.. It has been a while since the last post. I was lazy, hari-hari mengantuk, berat badan bertambah da da da. Kesimpulannya, saya down and malas. Lets do a random thoughts.

• Attended a career planning plan training last week. And guess what, engineering is the last area that I would spend my life in. Counselor itu super pelik, knapa perempuan ni jadik engineer padehal tade satu pun ciri-ciri itu yang bersesuaian dengan jiwa aku ni ha. And that explains ketidak-ada-motivasi dalam diri saya ini ok. The counselor could tell that I am not happy with my current job. And aku buat kerja adalah sebab kena kerja, and im not treating it as career. Because career is a life time happiness ok. And the only thing that makes me survive is the money money money. Wakakaa. Materialistik. So kalau gaji turun, or tak dapat recgnition in terms of bonus ke saguhati or whatnots, konfem aku demotivated. Uwaahh bahaya.
  ----> Me personally thinks that I am okay with what I'm doing now. Even though rasa tak happy (because cita-cita saya sebenar adalah utk menjadik lawyer dan berinteraksi dengan manusia, bukannya komputer), I still feel grateful for what I have now . Ni ayat sedapkan hati ke hapa?

• Travelled Miri-KL-Melaka-JB-KL-Melaka-KL...... Habes khatam semua kan. That's why wa sonyap and mengtidak-ada coveragekan diri.


• Hilang minat pada internet dah 2 week. No blogging, no Facebook-ing, no stalk org punya blog, no online shopping - nothing. Aku dok diam-diam atas sofa saje.


• Tido punya awal skrang ni. Asal kol 930 harus dah tergolek kat sofa. Bila MNI kejut2, takmo bangun. Then kol 1030 otomatik bangun n jalan gi katil. Then terus tido macam tak sedar langsung. Kehkehke MNI ada unsur bengang di situ ;p


• Owwhh, lst week I went to MidValley to check on my eyes yang dah tahap macam nenek tua super rabun. Kononnya nak check if boleh buat LASIK ke tak. End up, dr kata power saya teramat tinggi (rabun + astig dah 1.45. Max lasik can go is up to 1.2 only) Terus aku down. Dah la macma nak pecah kepala kena pakai specs 3 hari sebelum check mata tu. Eeeeeeeeeeeee. So sampai tua lah kene pakai lense? Iskkhhh.

• DIsebabkan takleh buat lasik, mak mentua saya recommend gi try pakai product Permata Hijrah. Habes segala spec macam alien, spray2 ape tu sama bagai wa beli OK. dengan harapan, sekurang-kurangnya power mata ni bleh turun, and membolehkan saya melakukan LASIK. Please please please. Doa n tawakal. Habes ngan MNI skali aku masaggekan matanya... But mmg lega la lepas tu. Macam release kepala :) Korang try lah kalau selalu sakit kepala, macam sengkak je kepala tu buntu ke hapa. Mana tau darah tak berjalan lancar ke kat mata n kepala kan?

• Project wa tengah sakit sekarang. I feel like pegi SPA ke hapa kan, ehh penat la buat keja yang tak approve 2 ni. Next week, we gonna give a second try to get it approved. wish me luck ~


• Dah. Ari jumaat ni. Ape tunggu lagi. 4.40pm dah... saya nak balik. Jom jom jom !!!!

Toodles~

DECO DECO

MNI kan, dia letak tajuk at his FB album on our new house ialah - Deco bersama Erin dan Nawi ! Apsal aku tak terfikir tajuk tu eh ? Keskeskes. Somehow I found him so comel :)

Btw, utk menjawab pertanyaan2 mengenai renovation yang telah dilakukan, let me list them out k. Sonang hangpa nak plan what u gonna do, and of course buat kira-kira di buku lejar.

1) Paint work 

2) Plaster ceiling -living & master bed room

3) Re-wiring  -living and kitchen

4) Wall extension -living

5) Piping - tap , washing machine piping etc.

6) Grill main door & yard

7) Wardrobe in master bed room

8) Dressing table in master bed room

9) Shoe rack & entrance partition

10) Mini bar

11) Huge mirror at living hall

12) Lights installation & chandelier (3 chandelier, 15 downlights, 12 lampu2 lain dlm bilik,toilet etc)

13) Door bell

14) Installation of all benda yang need drill - ampaian, shelves in toilets, kitchen nya tpt sangkut2, everything lah.

15) Cuci rumah sampai bersih so i masuk rumah tu, just cuci kaki je :)

 

Leave ur emails for quoatation or break down details ok ! :)

 

As for MNI and I, we did the bajet-bajeting direct after the wedding. Benar kata orang, harus beringat masa wedding itu. Dont splurge all your savings to have a super WOW wedd, at least kena ada saving to begin new married life which is sangatlah different ya. Kalau dulu, nak beli hape segala I didnt have to think about saving bersama, or payment2 yang kami dah bahagi-bahagikan yada yada yada. Dulu, segalanya suka hati aku. Sekrang, we have to come into agreement kalau nak spend melampau. Kalau setakat nk beli baju bajan kasut and handbags tu, itu still suka hati saya. MNI belum mampu meghalang. Kehkehke.

 

And all furniture kami dah beli since Dec 2009. Reason : Tgh Mega sale masa tu yo. Suma borong pada ketika itu and we managed to save up to 50% sebab beli time tu. Then all the perabots suh simpan kat kedai dulu lah sampai rumah siap baru diorang deliver. Camtulah kekdahnya.

Okeh. Saya sudah gemuk ! After 3 months kawen ya. Jarum penimbang menunujukkan penambahan 4kg. Darn! Why ehhh org da kawen berat menambah, padehal aku mkan sama je style cam belum kawen.Tadelah lepas kwen ni wa makan macam gorilla plak. Sumpah tak.

Nyte nyte. Sleep tight ~

Past sentence: Dah berjaya exchange lappie ngan MNI . Ouuhhh terima kasih kekasih hati :) Love u more and more.

HOME SWEET HOME

Phew, what a tiring weekend. But yet, soooo mind refreshing sebab umah kami dah siap renovate. Lalalalla~ Alhamdulillah :)
(But as usual, I always have this n that, mintak si jackson drill itu dan ini, psang pipe lah betulkan itu dan ini yada yada yada,  boleh migrain contractor kami tu layan kerenah kami laki bini. Alahai but of course u want the best out of every single buck u spend isn't it) Luckily Jackson tu layan je, walaupun mulut dia ala-ala berapi , kerja jalan dengan lancar. Dia siap cakap ' haiyaaa lu orang, wa suda kasi discount manyakkk ooo.. Lagi mau discount discount. Wa bnyak tolong takda charge punyaaaa'. Kehkhke memang betul pun dia bnyk buat keja remeh temeh yang tak charge pun.

Lets pics do the talking ok.

Welcome to our home sweet home :) Ini adalah entrace bersama shoe rack and partition. We decided to put the partition so that kalau org bukak pintu, tade lah terus nampak orang lain yang tengah tegolek kat living. Boleh la nampak sikit2 dari celah2 partition itu. Hiks. And the shoe rack is complete with tempat duduk so senang nak nak pakai kasut. No need to tetonggeng-tonggeng if nak ikat tali kasut. Kehkehke.

Living hall ! Aku kan suke kaler merah, so tha explains the colour concept n all :) And the mini bar itu pun, we design cincai boncai and very last minute. But Jackson's touch on the cabinet really makes it alive. Im so loving it. Itu gelas gatung2 ialah crystal glass hadiah dari Tasha n Noor. Thanks babe. Ada gunanya kann. Hehe.



Kitchen n yard. Kitchen kecik, lepas letak fridge lagi kecik ya amat. memang muat aku masak sengsorang je kot. Sebab i need space while cooking. Senang segala pergerakan. The yard itu we letak outdoor blind sebab nak tutup grill putih yg aku tak suke tu. hiks.



MasteR bed room and balcony. Tu balcony da letak invisible grill. We letak grill sebab takut ada sesapa kot meroyan nak terjun balcony kan, and of course utk keselamatan para anak-anak kecil . Takde lah invisible sangat the grill.. But dari jauh invisible la. Orang yg pasang grill ni kata, ianya telah disahkan selamat oleh SIRIM and ade warranty 3 years.

Dah.. Seres penat. Sampai KL tengah malam Jumaat. Sabtu the whole day kemas rumah. Then ari ni travel KL-Miri. So kami dua2 telah flat dan mcm nak MC je esok utk qada' tidur. Hehe. But takleh oo, saya dah dok sebelah bos. Khekhke.

Orait people. Goodnyte and sleep good :)

NENEK KEBAYA

Oh oh lamanya I've been in silence. Konon busy lah which is the typical normal reason. Like hoh kau ni para menteri ke nak busy busy. Well, as usual if suddenly aku muncul that means aku husband-less lagik. Oh oh sadis. If both of us are at home, we gonna always berebut lappie and internet and boleh bikin diri merajuk sakan konon tidak dilayan. In other words, does that ineternet explorer browser looks more interesting than me? Wah wah gila ke ada orang meroyan macam kami.Kah kah. Now, masing-masing try not to so melekat dengan lappie and konon macam tak interested langsung nak meng-tenet malam-malam. Padehal masing-masing jeling-jeling laptop kat meja tu like eeeee nakkkk intenettt. Kehkhekhe. Peace abg ! I know exactly what you have in your mind. (^_^) Keskekes last-last dua2 ekor berlingkau di sofa tengok Na-O-Mei, Nenek Kebaya, Buletin Utama sampai Asmaradana. Then tido :) That is what you call a quality time together. BLISS.

Life had a little bit of change skrang. Mainly I had my mind set that Im gonna be in KL for good this month. But need to stay here longer. Another 2 1/2 months to go. Gambate-ne! Lagi now dah dok sebelah boss di opis. Ada sket kekurangan masa nak buat kerja lagha. And I have this habit of having my head-set on ALL the time from 8-5pm. Not that I listen to music every second ok people. That is just my way of concentrating doing work. Konon nak kata aku focus la kerja. Blahs.

• Maybe aku rasa konon cool la kan pakai head-set. Padahal haram media player pun tak bukak. Keskeks. Like people will not see me as so skema buat kerja berkerut-kerut muka ku ini. Relevant kah?


• People around me can talk freely without takot-takot ohhhh budak tu mendengar perbualan kita. Konon like aku pekak dengan head-set lah. Padehal I know every freaking words u say ok. Because I listen nothing from the head-set. Kikikik.


• I hate people tengok-tengok kalau lalu-lalang depan my cubicle. So kalau pakai head-set ,org lalu ke, opis pecah ke, dinding runtuh ke ..I still feel undisturbed and calmly layan perasaan atau berangan dengan PC ku itu.


• A reason to buat-buat pekak kalau aku tade mood to talk to anyone.

Seresly, I cannot do a damn work kalau dengar music or bising-bising apetah lagi tengok TV. When I was at school, sape bising kat bilik study kene marah ngan aku ok. No aku bukan pengawas sebab aku budak nakal, tetapi aku gila kuasa kat bilik study. Suka hati aku lah, dah nama bilik study sape suruh bising. Skema kan aku. Ohh tak percaya ke?

Dah, gila random entry ni. What does it have to do with the title? Ohh I cannot watch nenek kebaya series today of course because Im gonna sleep all alone tonight and tomorrow. So nanti aku takot terbayang-bayang muka nenek kebaya and Diana Rafar yang jadik hantu kebaya tu. Gila ko kang aku tak tido. Dangg ala miss episode hari ni ngan esok.

Im off to KL this Friday. Just to have a look at our home sweet home. Contractor dah siap buat kerja pasang built-ins segala. Kalau aku tak puas hati dengan kerja mereka, wa takmo bayar utang balance kau Jackson oii. Both MNI and I balik Miri semula Ahad pagi. Sekejap gilaaa kan balik KL.Ingat Miri ni macam Melaka-KL agaknya. Alaaa dah pagi Ahad tu tiket paling murah. Wah wah harus pilih tiket murah ya, ni balik self-funded bukan on bisness. MNI iya lah,asyik balik KL meeting itu meeting ini. Haaiihh. Bininya ialah harus berusaha balik sendiri. 

Wokeh. Bosan ohh bosan. Wa tade teman berlingkau, tengok TV tade feel  I tell u.

Past Sentence: Camne nak bgth MNI i want his laptop for good? Ni dah bejaya hasut dia tukar laptop, now guna laptop die ni macam best la pulak hoh hoh hoh. My one is not bad whatt. Can tukar kan sygg? Wink wink winkkkkkkkkk.

BEJIMBA DI RUMAH

No, nothing to bejimba in Miri. Uiks. But I somehow enjoy our time together, lazing on the sofa watching Saturday Hindustani.. Haa booho but yes, me and MNI ialah penonton Hindustan. Conclusion: Enjoying weekend at home doing nothing -that sounds perfect to me as long as MNI is around. Saya tidak kisah jika tidak ke mana-mana :)

Rentetan my previous entry (rentetan? mana terlintas perkataan ni so sudden), everytime issue rumah came into conversation, MNI selalu kata 'sebab rumah lah syg sakit'..I seriously have no idea at all on apekah faktor menyebabkan miscarriage itu. But nak dijadikan cerita, kan ke aku mengemas rumah dengan hebat pada siang sebelum tragedi itu berlaku. Aku tolak sofa, angkat divider, tarik kerusi, panjat almari, baling bag yang macam gajah -u name it, sumanya saya lakukan. Maka dengan itu, we come into conclusion mungkin sebab I did heavy work yang menyebakan miscarriage itu. Aku tanya doctor, dedua doctor pun tak bagi conclusion. (Ni kena tulis kat entry lain, how I was so tidak puas hati dengan hospital yang dikatakan 5 star dan menjadi kegilaan warga kompeni sekrang.booho).

Btw people, I read A LOT on miscarriage ni. Because I taknak perkara ini berlaku lagi, walaupun saya redha perkara ini semua adalah rezeki kan. There are banyak faktor2 nya, and banyak jugak mitos2 nya.

Antara faktor miscarriage:

• Ada kelainan pada janin, mungkin time persenyawaan ada berlaku ketidaksempurnaan embrio itu. In short, embrio tidak cukup sifat or cacat, that's why ianya dikeluarkan dari tubuh. When I knew this fact, I was thankful for what had happened,because all moms sememangnya anaknya sihat dan sempurna kan. Mungkin itu hikmahnya, mana kita tau kan.


• Ada kelainan pada ibu contoh hormon tak stabil or ada infection, or ada penyakit such as kencing manis, darah tinggi etc.


• Problem with rahim ibu. Maybe rahim a bit weak, dinding nipis yang tak boleh menampung berat baby yang tengah berkembang. Orkalau rahim ada cyst pun akan menjadi faktor jugak.


• Darah terlalu pekat. This will menyekat pengaliran oksigen kepada baby and tak boleh survive.


• Ubat-ubatan tradisional yang menyebabkan rahim mengecut..So kena elakkan makan ubat2 cenggini masa awal pregnant.


• Lifestyle turut affect ok.. Contoh kalau merokok, atau do drugs and alcohol..Atau terlalu terdedah kepada chemicals (ohh saya sangat suka the smell of petrol..yes kalau isi minyak, wa sangat suka dok menangok kat tepi tempat minyak tu.. Bad habit bad habit. Urgh) Or berat badan terlebih sangat or very the kurus tak cukup daging dan lemak.. If u think of it, all these will affect the hormone. So pusing2 reason dia hormone jugak.

Yang ni plak, ada yang kata just mitos je which tak menyebabkan miscarriage pun.

• Makann makanan tajam2 seperti nenas, tebu etc. I also tak sure tentang fakta ini.


• Buat kerja-kerja berat or too much exercise.


• Terlalu kerap 'bersama' in the early stage of pregnancy.

Ni fakta ni, Kahirool yang cakap kat MNI. He said kalau naik flight pun boleh affect. Sebab tekanan kat perut. Haiyoo seriously I never dengar this fact before. So tatau la, no comment.

Apa-apa pun, we pray for the best kan. Things happen and we just have to deal with it wisely- mental, physical and spiritual :)

PSSTT.. D-X-X IN THE MAKING

 Peekaboo..weet weet sneak peek sket ok :) 

 

Our house boleh dikatakan 60% completed. Paint work, plaster ceiling, wiring, lampu,grill suma sudah settle. Yeay yeay. And the latest that just been done, and I haven't got a chance to see it real is the blinds. Oh disebabkan MNI mendapat seorang isteri yang agak pemalas (tapi he always says aku ni sangat suka buat kerja..adakah cubaan mengambik hati ? hurmm), maka dengan kenyit2 mata, I managed to convince him to use blinds instead of curtain. Ohh senang ok, tak perlu bukak2 langsir, pi cuci then pasang smula langsir itu. I have so many better things to do, seperti pegi shopping atau watch movies. Hah. Kan dah kata, aku malas buat kerja2 cenggitu. Kemas rumah and mara org buat sepah aku rajin lah.

 

Welcome to our crib. Grill ni pun baru je pasang semalam.

This is the kitchen view from outside. I personally hate that white grill. We planned for invisible grill, but MNI forgot to tell our contractor not to include that grill. Maka Jackson dah buat grill tu. Takkan nak buang plak kan. The rest of teh house, we gonna use invisible grill. Carca merba sikitlah, bercampur aduk grill.. Takpelah, I'll think of something else to cover grill putih yang tak disukai ini.  

 The living hall ! Blinds tu dah ditarik ke tepi. Concept living hall ni?? Heeh tgu dulu lah. Rumah cam tongkang pecah, nanti dah siap suma I'll reveal it ok :) Itu kerusi bulat besar, MNI yangpunya. he selected by himself, super gajah and aku nak hantar masuk third bedroom, but dia lagi rela hantar our L-shaped sofa masuk bilik. Biarlah kerusi gajahnya di ruang tamu. Apekahh? L-Shaped letak dalam bilik. Heeshh laki aku ni. 

 The master bedroom. I designed for purple-ish theme. But ended up with baby blue. That tells you how good am I dalam bab design-meng design ni right? No, I am not colour blind, just hatiku ini berbolak-balik and nak jugak ikut kaler chandelier tu. Thanks sape bagi hadiah chandelier biru tu. That was one of our wedding gift. Ohhoo lampu menjadik saksi bilik tido ok. Aaww ;p   

  

Opted for blinds yang berjalur-jalur. Sebab takmo bilik yang berbunga-bunga. Konon modern style lah, but I really dont know ape end up concept ini nanti. 

   

Third bedroom. We keep it simple sebab tade sape pun nak dok bilik ni. Ada katil queen bed, but I dah kerah tenaga MNI suh bukak katil simpan dalam stor. Sebab bilik ni nak buat bilik baby if ada rezki lepas ni :) Second bedroom tade gamba. Itu utk guest room.

 

 Dah cukup buat masa ini. Next week all the built-ins akan start di-install. So by mid this month sumanya complete insyaAllah. Tapi saya harus dok Miri sampai May, buat penat je rushing-rushing nak siap rumah cepat. Konon i'll go back for good end of this mnth, but that's not gonna be the case now. Tsk tsk.

It's Friday yo.. Suka suka :)