HYPNOBIRTH STORY OF RAEF ARYAN

Not an easy move untuk tulis birth story semasa dalam pantang ni. Type sikit baby eekk. Type the next perenggan baby iiikkk.

Tapi Kak Erin memang simpan semua memori dan cerita pengalaman besalin. So here you go.

By the way, hypnobirthing is a fancy name. Salah satu cara untuk dapatkan gentle birthing. Takde benda pelik bin ajaib pun. Just guna 4 teknik – relaxation, breathing, visualisation dan deep relaxation.

>> Ahad - 1 October 2017 <<

Dari start masuk trimester ketiga, I always pray that baby will come out on the 2nd of October. Simply because ada banyak perancangan nak dijalankan start pertengahan bulan November.

Taknaklah tertinggal keretapi pulak kan. So hari Ahad tu dah cakap pada Encik Suami, InshaAllah mesti bersallin esok ni. Walhal EDD ialah on 11 October.

Hari Ahad tu jugak, Encik Suami dah janji dengan Kay nak datang Brew & Stone Café makan Musang King ice cream. Dia lah hantu durian, Kak Erin tak sangat.

But seriously yang tak hantu durian pun boleh meleleh pekena Musang King ice cream tu. Setepek Musang King atas ice cream hokey.

Lepas makan ice cream, balik lah rumah dengan hati gembira. Perut kenyang hati senang.

Malam lepas tidurkan Ninjas, I went to bed. Pukul 2 pagi terjaga sebab ada makhluk merangkak naik katil mommy. Ninja kecik, memang kerja dia selalu merayap masuk bilik mommy memalam. So Kak Erin bangun dan popok dia masuk bilik dia semula.

Masa tu rasa perut memulas. Not the toilet call because it was different. Tak terasa pun itu contractions. Every time it came, Kak Erin just control breathing and slowly visualise.

Sampai pukul 330 pagi, eh makin rancak pulak pulasan itu. Haha. So I knew it was time to time the contractions. Baru tehegeh download Apps untuk time the contractions.

For about 2 hours, surges datang every 30 mins, down to 20 mins and 15 mins.

Alhamdulillah. Kak Erin managed to feel painless, dengan breathing, visualisation and relaxation. Of course with a lot of zikr and doa.

>> Isnin – 2 October 2017 <<

Kejut En Suami untuk Subuh. Dan bagitahu dia dah masa pergi hospital ni. Lagi lah hari Isnin, nak beat the traffic from Nilai to Pantai Hospital KL is no joke!

Sampai PHKL dalam pukul 8 pagi dan terus check in labor room.

The best part was Dr Idora my Obgyn was on holiday. Ahhaa. Matilamak bisik hati kecil. Bergantung pada doctor yang on call untuk accommodate my birth preference.

To those yang nak bersalin gentle birth di PHKL, ada 2 doktor yang their practise can accommodate your request. Dr Idora and Dr Paul.

Masa Kak Erin dalam labor room tu, nurse bagitahu Doctor on call ialah Dr Suraya and Dr Paul. Based on my birth preference, nurse suggested amik Dr Paul.

Tapi Encik Suami requested for Dr Suraya. Dia kata kita doa Dr Suraya pun akan respect and follow our preference. And Alhamdulillah, bila nurse informed Dr Suraya and passed our birth preference, she was happy to accommodate.

Macam yang Kak Erin pernah share, when you opt for gentle birth, habiskan banyak masa terawal di tempat yang within our comfort and control. Which is kat rumah lah.

Sebab environment sangat memberi kesan kepada hormon kita. Bila dah kat labor room tu, banyak lah perkara yang akan distract kita.

Masa check in labor room, I was 5 cm dilated. Nurse buat 1 VE with my permission. During 1st stage labor Kak Erin bernafas ikut fasa dia. Masa surge datang never ever lawan surge tu.

Ride the wave, relax the muscle make sure the whole body totally lembik. Lembik ni meaning kita tak lawan badan sendiri. Muka pun no kerut-kerut. Shoulder pun lembikkan. Until kita boleh achieve deep relaxation state.

Do a lot visualisation – blue ribbon, rose buds haa semua ni kena gi belajar lah tau. And Kak Erin deep inhale Narinar FT most of the time to ease relaxation.

Encik Suami sangat berjaya menjadi birth companion yang ohsem. Thank you for the light massage. It helped a lot producing oxytocin.

Oh ye, dia jugak yang banyak tanya nurse nak dim the light, temperature bagi tinggi sikit and pasang ayat Quran.

Tengah layan surges, I felt a big rush came out. Oh ya there you go. Air ketuban pecah. I knew baby is coming and immediately turned to my birth position.

I chose kneeling because it was the most comfortable position. Nurse and doctor were fully aware on the position yang Kak Erin requested.

Tak sampai 2 minit lepas tu, automatically my body told me to take deep breath and breathe out the baby. Again visualise the J-path, the first breathe the head was out. The second breathe shoulder was out. Then baby slide out smoothly at 9 AM. Alhamdulillah.

Nurse terus letak baby on my chest for skin to skin. Let the vernix absorbed. Encik Suami cut the cord after 15 mins once it stopped pulsating.

Alhamdulillah Kak Erin rasa so segar bugar, baby was alert and we were left for 3.5 hours in the labor room for bonding.

Syukur Alhamdulillah for a smooth and safe delivery. 1 hour in labor room before delivery. No drugs, 1 VE and no medical interventions. Kak Erin was fully in control of my own body. A wonderful hypnobirth Alhamdulillah.

Okeh itu saja memori terindah yang Kak Erin nak share.  

Happy birth-ing!

Birth Story of Khalif Aryan

This is going to be a super-long entry.

Sunday 16 Feb 2014.

We got a visit from my adik ipar & his in-laws. He just got married 2 weeks ago and weekend tu, the couple buat KL tour to their relatives' places together with his MIL and FIL. I managed to prepare soto Johor with begedil daging lagi kau. Gigih kemain. Everything seemd to be like normal. Not even mild contractions or period-pain like of feeling.

Went to bed quite early because Aryan nak pegi school the next morning. And I had a check-up with Dr Idora. Thinking about the traffic from Wangsa Maju to KL, aku rela bangun bagi terpacak kat spital at 8am rather than getting stucked in the bad traffic.

At 11pm, I felt like perut memulas. It must be the feeling nak poo poo- that was what in my mind. Went to the toilet tapi taknak pulak poo poo so I just ignored the feelings and went to sleep. At about 1230am, terjaga sebab rasa perut memulas lagi. Tapi sakit memulas tu macam manja-manja je.. It must not be the contractions I said sebab tak sakit mana pun. I did not have any braxton hicks masa pregnantkan Aryan. Not even this time. So I did not know how the braxton hicks feel like.

The memulas perut feeling came quite regular that night. I was in all-four position most of the time. Susun bantal tinggi-tinggi atas katil and melekap kat bantal tu. Memang tak rasa sakit lah I could sleep macam biasa. At about 3am I was quite curious knapa that feeling tak hilang-hilang eh. So I started to time the contractions. No harm pun nak time kan. Kau just download je apps dia. Senang bebeno. Eh eh eh... Bila tgk the pattern, it was 5-6 minutes apart and lasted for about 1 minute. But I was still in denial. No, that must not be the real contractions. Firstly the feeling was manageble and secondly I was only at 37 weeks along the pregnancy. Takkan nak deliver kot kan. What ever lah I said, sambung tido, esok pagi jumpa Dr Idora boleh tanya dia ape kemenda nya ini.

Monday 17 Feb 2014

MNI insisted to not sending Aryan to school. Takut kalau aku kena tahan ward masa check-up nanti leceh dia kena amik Aryan from school. Lagipun badan Aryan dedar-dedar so we sent him to his old babysitter's place. Oh you know the traffic in KL on Monday morning could drive you nuts! It took us almost 1.5 hours from Wangsa Maju to Pantai Hospital KL. Madness! Dalam kereta MNI and I berborak like takde apa-apa berlaku. Sebab entah, aku tak rasa sgt pun the surges. Tapi sempat jugak jeling-jeling jam kat keta- mannn memang the surges dtg every 4-5 mins and lasted for about 1 min.

Sampai PHKL, I was the second patient. But unfortuntely Dr Idora got an emergency at the labour ward and masuk clinic lambat. MNI asked me to go direct to the labour ward but I refused. Sebab kang macam-macam plak dia nak check. Better jumpa Dr Idora dulu and get her advice. We got to see Dr Idora at 11 am. Before tu, I felt like vomiting kat waiting area.  Tapi berjaya tahan.Cuak jugak because muntah pun tanda yg baby is coming, Masa Aryan pun aku muntah few hour before delivered.

Masa scan scan maybe she could feel the surges. She asked me ada rasa any contractions ke and I told her lah about the memulas-mulas thingy. She asked for my permission to do a VE. I was ok since aku pun nak tau whether I was in labour or not sebenarnya. Lepas VE, she told me that I was 5cm dilated already and baby was fully engaged. Ya Allah, I was still in denial. Sebab it was so different compared to masa delivered Aryan ; at 4cm I lost my mind already, tarik besi katil, marah MNI, menjerit and whatnots. Dr Idora asked us to masuk labour room or balik rumah pack baju ke macam mana. Bag mmg dah ada dalam kereta, so I chose to masuk labour room. Kalau balik rumah, mmg agaknya bersalin dalam keretalah kekdahnya.But I told her nak masuk labour room after lunch and zuhur. She was ok.

12.00pm

PHKL adalah tpt yang bosan utk jalan-jalan ye. Tak macam kat Prince Court boleh jalan dari hujung ke hujung, luas etc. PHKL jalan 10 minit dah habes tawaf spital dah. At this time, I could feel the surges were more intense. Bila surges dtg, I had to stop walking and lean on the wall. Few times jugaklah staffs kat situ tanya nak wheel chair ke? But I said no, I memang tgh jejalan nak cepatkan labour. 

Sempat pegi starbucks kejap beli Java Chip Frapp. Tgh beratur and bayar pun, I tried to control the surges. I applied lah all the techniques that I learned during the hypno class. It helped me a lot. Bila ada surges yg terlalu intense tu, what I need was just lean on the wall je. Itu position yang i felt so comfortable. After dah dapt frapp, jalan-jalan lagi around the hospital. Pastu dah bosan, MNI kata jomla check-in labour room. At least I could be free nak buat apa-apa position which I felt more comfortable. Sebab hospital tu boring, aku pun agreed.

1.00pm

In the labour room, as usual macam-macam plak benda-benda admin yang nurses tanya. I told them about my birth plan as they did not get a copy of it. My file was still at the clinic. Fortunately I had extra copy in my handbag, so I passed to them. The nurse requested to do a CTG. I refused at first, but dia mulalah kata procedure biasa bla..bla..bla.. Sekejap je pun takpe she said. So I malas nak layan and agreed.

Masa ni MNI mmg sgt memainkan pernannya sebagai birth companion. He asked the nurse to dim the light, controlled the room temperature, korek sana sini setting the room etc. The nurse gave me freedom to tukar baju spital or birth using my own cloth on. Aku malaslah nak kotorkan baju sendiri kan, so tukar lah baju spital tu. Then rasa nak shi-shi. Went for a loo and there you go, mucus plug dah keluar. Hermm.. lps tu cam saikologi sgt, tetiba plak rasa surges sgt kuat. (maybe that was my mindset sebab mucus plug dah keluar). MNI plak masa tu keluar kejap pegi beli roti and amik telekung dalam kereta. Lps mucus plug keluar, aku muntah lagi skali. I knew baby really really want to come out already. 

I tried to find the most comfortable position. Apparently kneeling was the best. Ada stool dalam labour room tu, so I letak bantal on it, and turunkan selimut to alas my lutut. Masa ni masih whatssapp with my buddies cerita lah aku tgh in labour ni. Probably 6-7cm dilated already, aku agak je lah kan.

I was in this position most of the time

1.30pm
MNI masuk labour room bawak roti apa bagai. Memasuk carik aku, rupanya I was terselit tepi katil resting on the stool. He wiped my sweat, bagi minum air, bagi makan kurma etc. He also gave me the light torch massage. Owh sgt selesa seriously. Then at one point, rasa lenguh lah plak dok gitu, so I stood up and swayed, squat etc. Masih tak selesa. MNI hugged me, we cuddled. Oh man sgt selesa. It must be the love hormon oxytocin. Ngeehehe.

Cuddling really helped me to control every surge :)

He asked me nak naik katil tak. I did not want to lay on the bed. He asked me to be at kneeling position but on the bed. Dia cuak kot kalau baby keluar on the floor. Wakaka. So I naik katil and set myself to this position.

Kneeling On the bed

Naik katil tak sampai seminit, tetiba I felt a big poo came out. Man that was the air ketuban. Masa tu I knew baby was about to come out already as I could feel it. MNI called the nurse, tapi nurse lain yg dtg. Not the one that I passed my birth plan to earlier. She requested to do a VE but MNI refused. He asked the nurse to panggil Dr Idora sebab MNI pun tahu based on experience masa deliver Aryan, bila pecah ketuban je tak sampai seminit baby keluar. The nurse insisted to do a VE sebab dia kata kalau tak tau brapa cm dilated macam mana dia nak panggil dr. Gosh aku malas nak layan lagipun aku tak nampak muka nurse tu. I tried my best to control my breathing and focus on the delivery. The visualisation techniques really really helped! The nurse asked me to baring utk VE. Ok lah fine, baring kejap she did VE and 9cm dilated already. Baru dia terkedek panggil Dr Idora. Masa tu aku dah kembali ke kneeling position semula. 

2.00 pm

I made the humming sound. Sgt membantu my breathing and visualisation. Suddenly I felt the 'ring of fire' thingy and I just breath out the baby. I know the head was out but masa ni nurse yg kelam kabut tu entah apa yg dia buat aku tak tau. But for sure she was not down there until I told her the head was out. The other nurse yg ada my birth plan entered the room and she was the one yg sambut the baby. I breath out for the second time and I knew the shoulder was out. Lepas tu the rest baby slide out sendiri at 2.09PM.

The nurses asked me to turn and placed the baby on my chest. But oh before tu diorang ada buat suction kat baby tu jugak, but MNI kata no, its enough. They did not touch the baby after that. Let the vernix absorbed to the skin and baby was so alert. That was the best moment I tell you ! After tu baru Dr Idora dtg. MNI cut the cord after about 15 mins when the cord dah stop pulsating and turned white. Aku pun rasa sgt segar bugar, fully concious and dapat appreciate that moment to the fullest. . The placenta dah keluar dari rahim, so Dr Idora just tarik sikit je bagi dia keluar habes. I had minor tear, kena jahit sikit. After that we were left alone for bonding time for about 2.5 hours before being transferred to the maternity ward.

Syukur Alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dengan lancar dan selamat. No drugs, only 2 VEs, no medical intervention, I felt very comfortable during labour and delivery, I was in control of my own body, and it was a wonderful birth experience :) A very gentle birth. Alhamdulillah.

Walaupun ada nurses at PHKL yang tak brapa nak follow our birth plan, but all in all I berpuas hati sebab almost all we requested diorang respect and follow. For instance we requested to delay cleaning the baby, delay vaccine etc, semuanya mereka follow.

Few tips :
1. Practise makes perfect ! Kena rajin practise breathing technique so you know which one to apply and when. Ini aku pun kurang practise so ada jugak time yang ke laut breathing aku tuh.
2. Visualize the birth that you want. I always visualise that I will give birth at on all-four position. And turned out to be true. And also I always always always visualise the rose bud, the blue ribbon, thinning and thickening of the servics, the baby path, the laluan J etc. All these really really helped me a lot !
3. Get enough drinks and food. Energy kena ada ok.
4. Husband kena tau their role as birth companion. And both of you must understand your birth plan. So senang lah nak protect apa yang u nak.
5. Trust your body ! It is designed to give birth naturally.
6. Of course doa bnyk-bnyk and tawakal kepadaNya selepas usaha dan doa.

Ok. perasaan lepas bersalin kali ini? Saya tidak trauma lagi and tak serik utk bersalin lagi. Alhamdulillah.

Happy birthing !

PENGALAMAN BERSALIN (PART 3)

Saturday, 08 Jan 2011, 12.30am, In labour room
Sambil kena sorong ke labour room tu, nurse tu sempat tanya aku nak amik epidural takk? Aku hanya mampu mengangguk sebab seres tak boleh tahan sakit tu. Nurse kata ok kalau nak amik epidural we need to give u enigma first. Lepas u pass motion baru kita inject epidural (ke enimma, enikma whatever it is lah. Yang aku tau benda alah tu nak suh kau poo poo before amik epidural tu). So aku kena baring, tukar baju yang macam separuh bogel sebab tak pakai pape kat dalam. Hoho. Then lepas kena inject enigma tu, trus aku berlari ke toilet nak poo poo. Dah la sakit contraction, berlari plak tu. Gila aku rasa dunia ni cam bepusing-pusing dah.

After poo poo tu, nurse kata kena buat CTG dulu for 20 mins. Kau gila ke apaaa?? Aku nak epidural lahh bukan CTG ! Aku siap marah MNI suh cakap nurse aku nak epidural skrang jugak ! Tapi nurse kata, kena jugak buat CTG before epidural tu utn monitor contraction. Lepas buat CTG baru boleh call doctor yang nak inject epidural tu. Seres gila, macam mana nak tahan lagi 20 mins, then baru nak inject epidural? Eiii aku rasa nak maki suma orang kat situ.

Saturday, 08 Jan 2011, 1.00am
CTG done ! Wah aku rasa hebat sebab dapat bertahan 20 mins tu. Tapi Tuhan je tau macam mana rasa sakit tu. Baju MNI tu nasib baik sweater tebal, kalau tak dah koyak kena tarik ngan aku. Eh MNI pun pandai, dia bagi aku tarik baju je, kalau bagi tarik daging tangan dia, mesti dah koyak daging tangan dia. Kehkhe.

Lepas amik result CTG tu, barulah tehegeh-hegeh nurse called doctor epidural. Aku rasa nak maki lagi skali, apsal kau tak panggil awal-awal tadi?? Patut lepas CTG tu dah boleh terus inject epidural kan. Ini satu hal plak nak tunggu doctor epidural sampai. Aku dah terlolong-lolong dalam labour room. Aku takdelah rasa aku tepekik telolong, tapi MNI kata semua org kat spital tu dengar sora aku kot. Kehke. Sampai satu tahap tu (sebab aku asyik suh MNI tanya nurse bila doctor nak sampai), MNI siap cakap kat nurse 'Ei doctor ni dok mana lama sangat nak sampai.' Nurse kata 'dia ada kat spital, on call, on the way lah tu'.. Kepala hotak on the way dari spital amik masa 20 mins. Aku maki dalam hati je lah, sebab sora dah guna utk menjerit-jerit.

Saturday, 08 Jan 2011, 1.20am
Doctor epidural pun sampai. Dengan lembabnye dia nak kena bukak bag dia lah, amik jarum segala (ni aku assume je lah, sebab aku tak nampak pun dia because sakit itu mengatasi segala-galanya). Aku semakin kronik nak kuar anak tekak mungkin. Nurse suh bagi aku oksigen yang boleh buat kita khayal tu. Guess what, MNI yang kena bagi corong oksigen tu sebab nurse ada 2 orang tengah nak pegang badan aku, and doctor epidural tu sibuk nak mencarik urat aku nak cucuk kan. Dah la diorang tak ajar MNI camne nak pakai corong tu. MNI main tekup je kat mulut aku. Apa lagi aku lagi meronta-ronta sebab actually corong tu ada macam button utk masukkan gas, tapi MNI tak tekan button tu. Maka aku makin sesak napas lagik ada. Seres aku rasa nak tendang MNI sebab tak bagi aku benafas. Tapi dia laki aku, mana boleh tendang. Ok aku patut tendang nurse tu sebab tak ajar MNI cara pakai corong tu.

Dalam pada nak inject-inject itu (aku tak tau la apsal lembab gila diorang ni nak inject), aku telah menolak corong oksigen tu sebab aku rasa air ketuban pecah. Aku jerit 'nak pushhhhh'. Nurse sorang tu sempat seluk lagi and dia kata dah 8 cm !!! Nurse lagi sorang tu kata, already 8cm, cannot take epidural !

Ntah aku dengar nurse yang tak bagi aku epidural tu, aku hangen satu badan. Tak tau ke aku sakit macam nak putus nyawa ni. Mulut dah tak benti-benti mengucap doa segala. (Maki hamun semua berlaku dalam hati je). Aku lawan cakap nurse tu 'nak jugakkkkk epidurallllllll'..

The epidural doctor tu kata ok ok kita bantu awak ye. Kita amik epidural. Baik kan doctor tu. Tiba-tiba kemarahan aku pada dia sebab datang lambat dan lembab nak bukak beg tu hilang sebab dia kata akan bagi aku epidural jugak. Dia suruh aku bertenang sebab nak inject tu aku kena dok diam. Fine aku cuba tenangkan diri tapi 2 saat je berjaya. Pastu aku meroyan menjerit-jerit kembali.

Dalam pada diorang nak inject tu, tiba-tiba aku rasa macam dunia ni gelap. Aku kat dunia lain. Aku ingat aku dah mati dah. Sempat pandang mata MNI nak mintak maaf segala sebab memang ingat nak habes nyawa. Masa tu jugak nurse cakap 'Shazren jangan push. Baru 8cm. Jangan push'.

Aku menahan diri supaya tak push. Ala-ala menahan poo poo yang sangat besar. But seriously aku rasa macam ada bola nak kuar kat pintu rahim tu. Tahan punya tahan, tetiba rasa macam bahagian vagina tu meletup ! (Mintak maaf la description aku ni detail sangat kah. Haha). Then rasa dunia gelap, berada kat alam lain yang tenang, senyap tak dengar pape dah.

Saturday, 08 Jan 2011, 1.35am
Pastu aku dengar suara doctor epidural tu kata, 'baby dah keluar' diikuti dengar bunyik baby nanges ! Tak sempat kita nak inject, doctor tu cakap. I was like whaatttt ?? celah mana baby ni kuar sebab aku tengah mengiring, kaki tekepit-kepit tahan sakit, and tgh nak inject epidural. Baby dah kuar time suma orang tengah focus nak inject aku. MNI kata baby kuar takde sape sambut, sedar-sedar baby dah ada atas katil. Cepat-cepat nurse amik baby. Gila kauuuu. Baby aku kuar sendiri takde org sambut okei ! Nasib baik  katil tu panjang and aku tak push. Kalau aku push and katil tu pendek, agaknya baby aku tepancut keluar jatuh kat lantai kot.

Betapa heronya baby itu. Lepas tu aku terus sebak, nanges and hilang suma sakit dengar MNI azankan dia. Lepas siap-siap semua, barulah terkedek-kedek gynae aku sampai. Dengan muka mamai lalok-lalok tepisat-pisat cakap congrats kat aku. Nak je aku maki lagi, confident gila kata deliver esok ptg. Ubat induce takes time to take effect la hape. But sebab semuanya dah selamat, aku senyum je lah kat dia. Then diorang letak baby atas badan aku, aku macam tak caya I am already a mommy. Seres kau, everything was so fast.

Kesimpulannye, aku deliver secara normal (kaki tekepit time mengiring kira normal lah kan?), without epidural & tanpa gynae. Yang menjadi hero adelah 2 org nurse and paling penting MNI; yang telah pun jadik mak bidan. Doctor epidural tu takleh termasuk dalam golongan hero, sebab tak sempat inject aku. Apa-apa pun, hero of the day is still our baby. Sebab tu nama dia Hadif Aryan which means yang bermatlamat dan kekuatan yang tinggi =).. Apa-apa pun aku bersyukur sangat semuanya selamat. Semoga Hadif akan membesar dengan sihat dan menjadi anak yang soleh.

Mommy loves both of you =) Muaaah!

PENGALAMAN BERSALIN (PART 2)

Friday, 07 Jan 2011, 6.00pm
After the CTG, doctor panggil masuk bilik dia for further discussion. Aku dengan terpinga-pinga tu masuk lah bilik dia. I asked her kenapa nak kena induce. Her answer was simple : Sebab baby tak berapa active and a bit small.  Maka better keluarkan dia so that we can monitor him dari luar, because if we keep him inside, we never know what's really happening. Since baby dah cukup matang (38weeks), and heart beat pun stable, so memang takde problem to induce.


And doctor was so confident kata ubat tu akan takes time to react. Means I will only feel the contraction the next morning. Maka paling awal deliver pun, esok ptg. Dia siap kata, selalunya orang akan amik 2 tablet sebab contarction tu memang akan lamat snagat rasa. Ok so aku pun tenang sikit, sebab ada masa lagi nak prepare mental utk delivery esok petang.Doctor suruh MNI balik amik bag , and aku tinggal sebab dia nak terus masukkan ubat induce tu. I was like 'oh secepat ini kahh??'

Gila kau. Then doctor suh baring and dia masukkan 1 tablet ubat tu. Part ni takdelah sakit sangat. Sama je procedure macam VE tu. Ngilu-ngilu sikit jahhhh. After masuk ubat, I was sent to the ward. Doctor suh rehaat banyak-banyak and tido puas-puas.

Friday, 07 Jan 2011, 7.00pm
Aku start rasa sengal-sengal kat rahim. Eh tapi ni sakit ape ntah and I was confident gila kata that was not contraction. Sebab baru masuk ubat tu 1 jam kot ! Oo maybe sakit sebab effect masukkan ubat tu kot. Lantak lah aku buat bodo je dan tahan sakit itu.

Tapi aku perasan sakit tu datang every 2 minits. Bukan ke sakit contraction ialah sangat regular dan berulang-ulang ? Nurse buatlah CTG lagi sekali sebab memang procedure pun masuk je wad kena wat CTG. After dapat results, nurse tu cakap 'eh contraction awak ni every 2 mins.. awak boleh tahan keee? Awak nak amik pain relief tak? We have tablet & injection if you want.'

Aku pun cam sengal gila, oo itu contraction ke.? Camne aku nak tau, aku tak penah beranak lagi okei. Ni first time kot ! Aku dengan eksyen nya cakap kat nurse tak payah la dulu pain relief. Sebab baru 1 hour masuk ubat induce ,lagipun esok baru nak deliver. So nurse pun tinggalkan aku dengan keberlagakan aku sendiri.

Friday, 07 Jan 2011, 10.00pm
Aku dah beguling kat katil sebab contraction tu makin kuat. MNI pun kesian tengok aku peluk-peluk besi katil macam orang meroyan lagaknya. He asked me to get the pain relief, tapi aku still degil sebab aku rasa boleh tahan lagi. Lagi pun nurse kata esok pagi kol 6 dia akan check smula. Tapi adakah aku mampu bertahan sampai kol 6 pagi esok? Gila. Sumpah sakit, tapi tak tau nak cakap sakit macam mana. Melihat isterinya yang kesakitan, MNI called the nurse. So nurse tu buat VE lagi. Ookkk this time memang sakit okei !! Because I felt the contraction jugak time dia seluk-seluk itu. Rasa macam nak tendang nurse tu, tapi kang dia tinggalkan aku merana time nak deliver esok plak kan. Haha so bertahan dan bersabar dengan sakit itu je lah.

Nurse kata, takde bukaan lagi. Still 0cm. Contraction tu kuat maybe because ubat induce itu. So tak boleh buat apa and aku terpaksa menanggung kesakitan itu. Ohh masa ni nurse dah tukar shift, so nurse yang baru ni dia tak bagi aku mintak pain relief because she said still early and takde bukaan pun. So kena tahan sakit. Ok rasa nak sepak lagi sekali sebab suh aku tahan sakit contraction every 2 mins tu. Tak sempat nak benafas contraction tu datang ok. Gila kau.


Friday, 07 Jan 2011, 11.00pm
Tiba-tiba termuntah. Habes dinner yang aku makan. Dah la aku order makanan sedap kat Prince Court ni. Habe habes semuanya keluar dan aku kembali lapar. Dah la sakit contraction, pastu lapa plak tu. Eeii hangen btul satu badan. MNI panggil nurse. She said oo muntah itu normal as tanda-tanda nak bersalin. Dia suruh sabar and jangan risau. Siap suruh aku tido nyenyak-nyenyak. Gila kau, suh aku tido. Celah mananak tido, sakit contraction every 2 mins kot !

Saturday, 07 Jan 2011, 12.00am
Muntah lagi sekali. This time takdelah panggil nurse sebab dia kata muntah tu normal kan. Kang aku panggil, dia kata aku ngada-ngada pulak.

Saturday, 07 Jan 2011, 12.30am
Contraction rasa semakin menggila. Aku dah tarik katil spital tu macam nak roboh. Aku cengkam tangan MNI macam nak lebam. (Dia la kata, tapi tak lebam pun). Sebab kesian kat MNI, aku just peluk tiang katil je every time contraction tu datang. Aku rasa macam nak tendang semua benda tapi takde menda nak ditendang. Pinggang rasa macam nak putus, perut rasa bisa macam bnyk jarum yang mencucuk-cucuk. Camne nak kata aku pun tak tau lah, tapi memang sakkiitt oi.

MNI suh panggil nurse tapi aku kata takyah, sebab konon nak tahan sampai pagi esok. But last-last aku serender. MNI panggil nurse terus and nurse kata dia nak check bukaan rahim. Aaa tidak nak kena seluk lagi kahhh?? Ok aku seres rasa nak tendang nurse tu.

Dia seluk punya seluk. Tetiba dia kata 'Dah 4 cm.. You are in labour! That's why u rasa sakit sangat.. Ok pegi labour room sekarang '


Gilaaa aku panic nak mampus. Kata bersalin esoookkk. Knapa kena pegi labour room sekarangg ????? Tapi takde sape jawab soklan aku sebab aku dah kena sorong gi labour room. Dalam samar-samar tu sempat tengok muka MNI pun panik gila. Seres aku takut nak beranak ni , aku nak cakap kat MNI I love him so much tapi tak sempat. Sangat tragis rasanya kena sorong gi labour room tu.

To be continued in Part 3...

PENGALAMAN BERSALIN (PART 1)

I am still at PCMC. Supposedly dah boleh discharge hari ni, but Hadif kena jaundice and tak kurang-kurang even though dah go through photo-therapy. Maka we have to wait until tomorrow. InsyaAllah esok discharge kot. Yeayy lets go home hero !

Before aku lupa detik-detik delivery few days ago, better aku tulis cepat-cepat. Akan tetapi, konfem aku takkan lupa pengalaman ni sampai bila-bila. Gila kau nak lupa, pengalaman saat-saat orang kata nyawa di hujung tanduk okei !

Friday, 07 Jan 2011, 5pm
Went for 38 weeks check-up. Actually MNI and I dah discussed kat rumah, untk tanya doctor, boleh tak if we want to induce delivery on next Tuesday (11.01.2011). Selain date nya yang super cantik itu, kitorang decide nak induce sebab masa tu MNI will be around KL for the whole week. Makanya takdelah aku kena beranak sendiri kat umah kalau sakit malam-malam sorang-sorang kat rumah. Or beranak dalam keta sebab tak sempat gi spital ke. Ooo seriau okei.

Masa check-up tu, I told my gynae yang baby kurang gerak. Memang pun aku rasa dah 3-4 hari baby cukup gerak dah petang-petang kala. Selalunya by 11am dia dah gerak 10 kali. Ini dah masuk maghrib, dia baru gerak 5 kali. Adekah baby tidur sepanjang siang sampai maghrib? Aku pun tak tau la dei.

So gynae kata, 'ok lets look at your bukaan rahim. Kita buat VE'.... Ok aku takut nak mampus sebab aku baru baca pasal VE iaitu aktiviti seluk menyeluk ni. Eiii sounds so takut. And I couldnt imagine, celah mana doctor nak seluk masukkan tangan utk check bukaan itu? Masukkan tangan dia , the whole tangan tu?? Macam mana weiii?

Bila kena seluk, 'eleh takdelah sakit sangat'... bisik hati aku ni dengan eksyen sekali. Hohoho. Tapi memang pun, takdelah sakit gila macam kena pakai oksigen mask ke hapa. Ngilu-ngilu sikit la cenggitu. So future mommy takmau takut-takut okei ! Then doctor kata, oo bukaan aku ialan 0cm. Takde bukaan langsung lah. Konfemlah tak bukak lagi pintu rahim aku tu, sebab I didnt feel any contraction pun ! Hapela doctor ni dei.

Then she asked the nurse untk buat CTG plak. I was like ape kejadahnye CTG ni? Part ni tak sempat baca lagi. Sebab konon-konon ada masa 2 weeks lagi nak ke 40 weeks, so sempat la nanti bebila baca. Ha hamik kau terpinga-pinga. Sekali rupanya CTG tu ala letak alat kat atas perut, then nak monitor heart beat baby & contraction for 20-30 mins. Masa tu dah kol 5.30 pm okei. Aku rasa nak pelangkung doctor tu sebab aku nak balik umah lah, gi makan goreng pisang ke, lepak kopitiam. Dah petang kot !

After dapat result CTG itu, my gynae looked very happy. Aku tau die happy sebab dia yang kata. 'ooo looks fine. Im very happy. We can induce your delivery because baby sangat stable inside'

Ok aku cemas dan panik sebab aku ngan MNI tak bukak mulut pun lagi pasal our plan nak induce hari Selasa depan tuuu. Macam mana doctor tu tau wehh?? Macam bomoh plak dia ni.

Secara spontan aku tanye lah dia, Induce?? Bila doctor nak induce?'


Gynae jawab, 'Today. Petang ni'


Ok aku nak nanges sebab takut , panik, tak bersedia and nak balik dulu makan segala apa yang boleh makan sebelum deliver. Aaa tidak ! Memang tak sempat.


To be continued in Part 2..